Still Trying to Decide!

I still keep going back and forth about whether to start a new blog or continue here.  Now I have added another option.  You know...what all slightly crazy people do when they cannot decide between two things...add a third!!  Instead of staying here and republishing all my old posts I could let them stay forever in drafts and continue to write here.  I just don't really know which way I want to continue.  It is so very appealing to start fresh.  I think I'm going to give it a week or two to decide.  Its a big decision for me (I know not for most but yes for me it is) with pros and cons on both sides--ugh!

I have to say it's definitely been soooo nice catching up with people I haven't been in touch with in quite some time.  A few who still seem to be as much missing as I was for so long but hopefully they may pop back on and reach out.  We'll see I guess!

I'm starting to get a bit more comfortable writing here again.  I know it will start flowing better the more I do it.  Its just been so long.  Maybe just another reason to start fresh and new.

Right Under Your Nose

With the exception of the over stuffed file cabinet the basement purging has been completed!!  I'm so excited.  I can actually get to the things I need and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted.

I cannot wait to start purging other areas--not just in my home but also in my life and the deep crevices of my brain!  I am actually excited to rid myself of the physical crap taking up closet space but also the crap that has taken up way too much space in my mind and heart for way too many years.

I think I have held on to so much, in every sense, that I haven't been able to completely give myself in the here and now.  I think I have tried but I don't think I have succeeded in the way I really want to or as much as others deserve.

Maybe I have actually answered my own question from a post or two ago...To republish the past and continue or to start fresh with a clean slate?  Seems a clean slate may be the answer.

Peace

Purging

It all started with an unsuccessful search for my paper shredder.  I have file cabinets and shoe boxes full of paperwork in various stages of usefulness (most of which falling into the not very useful category) and I decided it was time to sort and dispose.  That is when a simple trip into the basement turned into over a week of purging.

I stood at the bottom of the stairs starring at the mountain of totes and 'stuff', took a deep breath and began the search for the shredder.  After a few falls ending in cuts and bruises I came to the realization that it was time to purge top to bottom/bottom to top.  I definitely needed to rid myself of more than just paperwork!

Thankfully my wonderful family helped dislodge and carry up every single tote and it began!  I sorted, organized, threw out, donated, and labeled for days!  The only thing left to do is bring the remaining totes back down.

I feel fabulous!  Who knew that letting go of so much 'stuff' could be so uplifting.  I think I may tackle the closets next.

The funniest part is I still haven't found the paper shredder!!

Peace

Decisions

I've been playing with the idea of coming back to blogland.  I enjoy writing here. It helps me work things out in my head and all the feedback I used to receive would throw different perspectives my way.  Who doesn't need other ways of looking at things?

I just can't seem to decide if I start a new blog or republish all my old posts and continue along my journey here.  Both options sound appealing to me.

Continuing on shows my growth--it offers me the ability to look back and see how far I've come and what I have accomplished.  On the downside it also can bring me down and remind me of all the mistakes I've made.  Thankfully I have learned from so many of my mistakes but I'm not sure I need to be reminded of them all the time.

If I start fresh (which sounds very appealing) there are no constant reminders.  I'm able to put forth the life I am living now without the baggage that drags me down. That being said, isn't it the baggage that makes me who I am today?  At least in some ways?

I'm not sure which way I will go.  I am sure I will return to blogland.  I don't think I even care anymore if those who shouldn't be reading spends their time doing so anymore.  I say that now but I will have to wait to see how I feel if and when it happens!!  I think enough time has passed that others have no desire to view but who knows?

New or old--old or new?  Decisions decisions!!

Peace all!

Yet Another Joke

Just a joke , tease, half a thought.  Just like most of the years wasted thinking it was real.

Glad I didn't put too much effort into thinking about it!!

If by chance there are any followers left out there, I'm planning on starting a new place to 'blog' and would love to have you join me!! I will share info when it's ready!

Love and peace to all

Voicemail Messages

I am not a fan of them.  Takes forever and a day to get into and when you do it's either not important or you can't make out what's being said.  Even more frustrating is the feeling that it's VERY important but is not clear enough to hear the words.

I've been left some wonderful messages which I will hold onto and some heartbreaking ones which I wish I could let go of.  This most recent one is one I wish I could hear clearly to figure out if it's wonderful or heartbreaking.

Then again maybe it's just a game, wishful thinking, dream or all of the above.

Probably nothing at all!

Peace